Mom’s story of stroke and dementia

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The most difficult question I’ve ever asked anyone was what I have to ask my mom from time to time, “Do you know who I am?” This is the woman who gave birth to me, the woman who, until now, knew me better than I knew myself. Now she asks who “that woman” is when she sees a picture of herself. Then she wants to shake my hand but she keeps forgetting that she can’t raise her right arm anymore because of the stroke she had 2 months ago. She can’t get up on her own, go to the toilet, dress herself, feed herself and so forth. This is a woman who raised 4 children on her own but who can barely swallow a sip of water without difficulty.

I am appealing to well wishers to help us with funds to help take care of my mom, Esnath Mutibvu. She has vascular dementia, a stroke on her right side and has a mass on her brain that doctors (GPs)say they can’t do much about. They say she is at risk of getting more strokes and is also at risk of different kinds of infections because of immobility. Medically, it would be best for us to find a good neurologist who can give us specialised care  and eliminate some problems that are treatable in order to avoid unnecessary suffering. In the meantime we are relying on public facilities that are scarce and short of medical staff. Her mind is not completely gone and if there is  way to help her walk again and regain some of the physical functions she has lost it would be great.

She cannot be alone. She needs 24/7 nursing care and I, being the only child that lives with her, cannot work and support us if I have to be at home to take care of her. I have one brother who is trying his best but cannot afford it all. We lost 2 brothers already so our family is now just the 3 of us. Our family has been plagued by so much disease and death that I am fighting back the only way I know how. Being a chronic pain sufferer as a result of a condition called Anorld Chiari Malformation myself doing everything on m own is difficult. Unfortunately she will need care for the rest of her life and there is no telling how long that will be. Good care facilities go for approximately R11 000 per month. This will include daily physio, meals, a double room and nursing care, As she is in a delicate state of health, money will always be needed to make sure that if anything comes up she gets the best care.

I cannot imagine what it must be like to be in her shoes, waking up sometimes and not recognising her surroundings and not understanding why she can’t turn herself or even sit up as she used to do. It must be scary as hell. Then she sometimes becomes lucid and remembers that her mind is playing tricks on her and her body is failing. The heartbreak she goes through each time is shuttering. At 73, it’s amazing how much she still wants to achieve many  more things in life. Her prayers to get better have motivated me to start this campaign so that she gets the most that’s attainable to make her life better and comfortable.

Growing up, I never imagined that one day like would throw a situation my way that would make me hope complete strangers would help me, yet here I am. It’s painful and very humbling but I can’t stand by and watch the love of my life suffer more than can be avoided.

It’s difficult to set an amount of ongoing support. For now I will set a target of $50,000 for a good care facility and neurological fees and treatments. I would like to try everything humanly possible to save her life because she has jumped through hoops to make me who I am. She has also helped many people over the years although she didn’t have plenty herself. She deserves every fight in me.

If there is anyone who wants to get in touch with me, please contact me via email: or if you prefer via phone it’s +27835609299. The best way to donate is via this site but Moneygram and Western Union are also options. Well wishers in Zimbabwe can transfer funds to ecocash number  0776965918. Do send me  a message if you donate so I can thank you personally and give you updates about her progress. Thank you. Follow the link below to donate.


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God uses what you already have to help you.

God uses what you have to help you

Whether you believe in God/the bible or not, keep on reading, there is something for you in this article.

In the bible, in 2 Kings 4 verse 1 to 7 there is a story about a widow who went to Prophet Elisha and told him that her husband’s creditors were about to take her sons into slavery because she had no money to pay them. Elisha said to her, “What shall I do for you? Tell me, what do you have in the house?” The lady said she had nothing but a jar of olive oil and God multiplied that oil so that she had enough oil to settle her debt and some more to live on.

So, if you are a believer, think about what you want God to do for you. I am sure that one is easy and I’m sure there is a whole list of requests. Now, think about what you have that God can use to help you. Everyone has something. The widow thought she had nothing because she didn’t really think that a jar of oil would help much but that jar of oil was all God needed to help her get out of a difficult situation. I flunked out of uni and was left with nothing but my gift of words, I can talk and I can write. At the time that I found myself with no friends, family, money, opportunities, ideas and in the harshest economic climate I’d ever experienced. This gift seemed like nothing really. It took me three years to then talk and write my way out of my situation and now when I look back I realise that I did not catch a lucky break, God used the gift that He had already given me to promote me. Of course, it took a lot of knocking on the wrong doors at first, until one day, just as the widow ended up knocking on Elisha’s door; I knocked on the right ones and my gifts were put to use.

Whether you believe in God or not, you already have something that you can use to change your life for the better. If you want a job, you probably have some education or else you wouldn’t be reading this. Even if you have nothing but a little education you must have some skill. It could be doing hair and/nails, telling jokes, cleaning, an eye for fashion, an ear for music, a good singing voice, persuasion skills, fitness enthusiasm, a passion for caring for the sick, etc. No one was born with absolutely nothing that can help. The key is identifying it and knocking on the right door where you can get help to make it into something big. I know people who use their illnesses or tragedigod uses what you have to help you 2es to write books, make videos that they use to make money and help other people in similar circumstances. So if you think you have nothing but problems, finding solutions to those problems can be the solution to your whole situation. That’s how a lot of organisations are formed, someone identified a problem that needed a solution and formed an organisation that is all about solving that type of problem.

If you are still trying to figure out how to get what you want for this year and beyond, I hope this helps. Just start by thinking, “what do I have?”

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